I'm Gone
By Rachel / Spinebreakers Crew
This bed is everything mine is not,
This one’s cold, my own one hot,
This pillow’s flat, my one is fat,
The quilt is thin; my cover’s not that,
This bed is everything mine is not.
My room is all that this room lacks,
This room is bare, my room has stacks,
My walls are bright, these one’s are drained,
My ceilings clean, this one stained,
My room is all that this room lacks.
I am a ghost of my former self,
I used to be the picture of health,
My bones protrude from under papery skin,
My eyes bulge out and my cheeks sink in,
I am a ghost of my former self.
It’s not long now until my light turns out,
All I do now is hanging about,
All the taste has gone from my food,
I’ve tried my best and fought while I could,
It’s not long now until my light turns out.
I wonder over what the World is doing now,
I almost hear shouts of ‘Oh Man’, ‘Oh God’ and ‘Oh Wow!’,
I’m not naive, I know that the World must go on,
But I wish it would stop till I am gone,
I wonder over what the World is doing now.
People remind me of what I’ll be missing,
Of dreams come true and hopeless wishing,
The days to come and the days gone by,
Each time that I would laugh, every time I would cry,
People remind me of what I’ll be missing.
Why must each second cause me pain?
Wires sprout out of every vein,
Machines ping erratically around my head,
Alerting people that I’m not yet dead,
Why must every second cause me pain?
I’ve become dull, now I’m a bore,
A vacant shell you can’t ignore,
I see worried looks in their eyes,
A sympathetic sorry I despise,
I’ve become dull, now I’m a bore.
The world is slipping,
I’m barely gripping,
World’s gone black,
I won’t bounce back,
The world is slipping.
I’m gone,
All wrong,
Blood spurts,
It hurts,
I’m gone.