Eli's diary
By Stacy / Spinebreakers Crew
Eli seems like the type of guy who would write a diary, so here’s a snippet for you all to devour!
22.07.09
Ever since Abe died I’ve been feeling myself slipping away, I’m not quite sure what though but I just get this feeling that I don’t belong here anymore. Of course I blame myself for his death, how can I not? But since first locking eyes with Auden I knew we both shared that same piece of loneliness; they say that the eyes are the door to a person’s soul and I sure saw straight into it. I know it sounds ridiculous, even more so now I’m writing it down but writing this down is the only way I can sort out my thoughts, at all other times they seem to be such an incoherent mess. I’d love to be more open towards her about how I feel. Ever since Abe’s death I’ve never really wanted to get too attached to anything let alone anyone, that’s why I love the dead of night, it’s silent eeriness the way you feel like the only one awake...anything seems possible at night. I love hanging out with Auden, with her anything is possible. We’ve done so much the last few weeks together and I think know I’ve made her experience the small, but good things in life. Can you believe she’s never been bowling before? She was kinda cute the way she couldn’t aim the damn ball right at all but getting her to experience all these things has opened up my eyes to my own world, I can’t sit and regret the past, it’s the past: done and unchangeable. Standing on that dance floor made me realise how although I’ve lost someone I’ve also gained so much from one person. Night time is the time when most people are tucked away, secure and safe but for me it's the one time when I truly feel alive...